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March 29, 2008

The Changing Of The Me

Filed under: Family,Friends,My World,Thoughts — steegness @ 11:06 pm

I’ve touched on this before, but I feel like it’s worth bringing up again. Change the channel if you’re not interested in further self-reflection.

I’m still working out where it is that I fit in my new life. Every now and again I try to tell myself that I’m the same person, just with new circumstances around me, but even I’m not buying that too much anymore. The changes that the new year has brought have wrought their havoc, for better or worse.

I’m out of touch with all the people and (literal and metaphorical) places I was before, and in touch with all sorts of other people and (literal and metaphorical) places that are either new or were far less frequently visited than they were prior to the Big Life Shift. Tonight is the longest I’ve been in front of my home PC for weeks, and it’s only been about 2.5 hours thus far.

I’m reading books. I’m not playing games; at least, not with the religious fervor of the past. I’m working 12+ hour days (sometimes) in an office, and driving home with a smile on my face. I’m spending more time with my family (despite the long work days), which sounds like a good thing, but home life is at times strained by the fact that I HADN’T been spending time and life was getting along well without me. This creates this odd sort of feedback loop that I don’t quite get.

And so it seems that I’m not the only one trying to figure out what’s become of me.

One Response to “The Changing Of The Me”

  1. Junima Says:

    Well, let’s see. You are now interacting with real people, face to face. You are not stuck in your home office so much that you feel uncomfortable if you’re not there. You have been pushed out of your cocoon, and found you actually like it out in the “real world”. And the kids are big enough now that they are actually FUN! (mostly…)
    I do believe you have become a grown-up!!! And your dear wife will get used to the new you!!